I have no real opinion on change.

It's the end of semester number three and I'm amazed at how much I've grown. My life has changed pretty drastically, my faith has grown remarkably, and the people I call my best friends were strangers a year ago. I started the semester with an almost-boyfriend, developed a real and loving relationship with my mother, watched my favorite cousin get married, decided to become a missionary, changed my major yet again, rejected my old friends, developed some new friends, and experienced the death of my first grandparent.

Through it all, I've decided I have no opinion on change. I used to love change: I rearranged my room at least once a month, cut my hair drastically once a year, dyed my hair often, and was constantly shopping for clothing to fit my "new style." Then I hated change: My brother went off to college; I went off to college; My friends moved on; My ex-boyfriend moved on. And now, after the most overwhelming and spiritually-challenging semester of my life, I both like and dislike change. Thus, I have no real opinion on change. If it's in God's will, it's going to happen. So if change is in God's will, it'll happen. If it's not, it won't.

I love the changing seasons. I love rearranging my room. I love reorganizing. I still love changing my hair, proved by the hair appointment I have next week to chop it all off. I hate change when it involves people (for the most part.)I love getting a new roommate, but I dreadfully miss the deep conversations my old roommates and I had as we fell asleep. I miss my high school friends (who aren't in high school anymore), and I REALLY miss my family and older brother, but I love that my older brother is a genius and already accepted at one med school for next year for sure. I hate change when it involves people (for the most part.) In the past couple days, I have said goodbye to four close friends who I actually may actually never see again. In the past day, I've internally grieved and said goodbye to my grandpa after he passed away. Although, I guess I've been saying goodbye for the past year or so.

Change is good. Change is bad. The point is, change is inevitable. Instead of dwelling on all the negative or positive changes that have happened this year, I prefer to lavish in Christ's love and God's unique creation that enables change (or no change!).